One's motivation or drive shouldn't feel this distant; however, I can't move forward anymore without it. Time is of the essence as well. Every time I think of something to propel me forward, I repeatedly come up short. Nothing comes to mind and it stings. To bring forth change and to beat dreadful daily monotony, I need to come up with a force to push me higher than before. This is difficult because nothing ever lasts for me. Great ideas are put into motion to find themselves sequestered within weeks or months. The thrill of starting something new, something foreign, dissolves. I could never finish something that requires continuous work and this simply won't do. Maybe you understand what I am saying, some of you might not.
I feel as if I'm walking daily with an empty mind moving through life's situations solely through physical acts, like I don't have an inner self. What is it that I want? What goal can be that important to me that I obtain it no matter what? If I get a hold on those answers, the upcoming days could be that much more manageable.
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Friday, March 2, 2012
Hey
It's been a while hasn't it. A lot of things have happened since the last time I posted an entry. Not all of these things are things that I am proud of. Neither are they things that I would like to talk about at this moment. Maybe when I am ready, I will slowly have enough peace of mind to release them from the hollows of my mind into the form of words. Just know that I am back on my feet and warming up my fingers to do more posts. Sure it's been a while but I haven't forgotten the power that writing has on a person's mind. Maybe it would have been better for me to start writing earlier but I just didn't want to...had no motivation. Thanks for everyone for still following me. It really does mean the world.
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